A lot has been going on in this writer's world so I haven't been blogging as much and I miss it immensely! I am under the gun on some personal projects and efforts, but I had to drop in today to let you all know I am indeed alive and kicking!
MORE NOVEL UPDATES!: My novel has taken yet a different path since I spoke about it in my last post, Books, Blogs and Beautiful Beginnings. Remember the small press publisher that passed on my manuscript (due to limited publishing slots) last month? Well, one of the publishers introduced me to a literary agent who is interested in representing me. They are currently reviewing my work and I should have an answer soon! I will as always keep you readers in the loop!
Now, as we all know, in publishing anything can happen, so even though I'm being considered by another independent press and an agent, I still have to continue on in my quest for publication so...
If self-publishing is to be my path, this could be my potential book cover. Here's a sneak peek!
Q: What are your inner most fears and do you think you could tackle them if you were face to face with them?
My deepest fear is not being loved or accepted for who I am. Not making a real connection.
Q: Are you where you expected to be currently in your life? Why or why not? What have been your stumbling blocks?
No, absolutely not. I’m still young, no doubt, but I just thought I’d be further in my life. I definitely did not want to be still living with my parents. This is such a drag. I feel stuck. And pissed. Plus my mother hates my guts. She just tolerates me. My father never stands up for me…
Q: I know that you want to be a famous songwriter. What steps have you taken to ensure that this dream becomes a reality?
Well, I have written a lot of songs, but that’s about it. I really don’t know how to go about it. I don’t get a lot of support. But I am determined to make it one day. I think the most important thing is the writing, you know, the talent. Shit, if I ever get my head clear, everything else will fall into place, right? Like, I know I have to make it happen though. I’m working on it. I’m working.
Q: Does the relationship that you have with your parents fortify you as a person or are you missing something in this relationship?
Have you ever loved something or someone and not known if the feelings were really mutual? That’s how I feel about my relationship with my folks. I guess they love me. But who really fucking knows? Their actions say otherwise. It’s almost like I don’t exist at times. Like why was I born if they didn’t want to pay me some type of attention? So I guess the answer is no, I don’t feel fortified by my relationship with them, but I do love them a lot. There is definitely something missing. I don’t know if it will ever be there. I wonder how they would answer this question if it were posed to them.
Q: Are you in a romantic relationship at this time? If so, what does this person add to your life?
Mmm… Romantic? I don’t know if romantic would be the right word to describe what I have. I see a few men when the need arises, but Noir is the main one I guess. He really knows my body and how to make me feel good sexually, but as far as a deep connection, we don’t have that. He can’t see inside my soul. I’ve never had that type of love. Maybe one day. Maybe…
Q: How do you support your art?
I work at a local record store. The pay is pitiful, but I get a discount on music which is great. I have to know what’s out there you know? Also, my father slides me a little money secretly. That’s a whole other story all together.
Q: If you were stripped naked in front of 1000 strangers, which body part would you attempt to cover and why?
I would probably cover my heart. I wouldn’t want it getting pierced.
Q: How much do you laugh and smile? Is it enough? If not, why do you think you don’t? I like to laugh as much as the next person, but I know that I don’t do it enough. I would like to. But my life is so serious all of the time though.
Q: Do you have any close friends that you can count on if you really need them for emotional support?
I have Taylor, but I don’t let her get too close. I don’t think I could count on her in a crunch. She’s just cool to hang out with. I don’t really trust most people with my feelings.
Q: Which means more to you, a deep passionate kiss or a revealing letter?
A letter definitely would mean more. I guess it also depends on who the letter was from. Also I guess it would have to depend on who is doing the kissing too!
Q: Do you believe in God or a higher power? If so, do you partake in a spiritual life?
I definitely believe in God. I talk to him in private a lot. I’m just not big on going to church. I like to read the Bible and get the true meaning. I don’t think going and listening to a preacher spout the same stuff every Sunday will bring me a deeper understanding of God. I have to read it and feel it for myself, by myself.
Q: Are you a forgiving person?
It depends on what is done to me.
Q: What are some things that you would not be able to forgive?
I hate liars. When I love, I love hard and I open myself up so if I opened myself up to you revealing all my scars and everything and you lied to me about important things, I would have a hard time forgiving.
What do you think of the book cover concept? Yay or nay? - Also, what do you think of Chyna? What are your impressions? Share your opinions in the comments! Thank you!